Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I am NOT defeated

My last blog was an honest depiction of how I was feeling at the moment. I felt, in a way, a little defeated. Self defeated. I had allowed myself to be so consumed with myself that I was denying the truth of God operating in my life. While I do not believe that I was wrong for sharing what I was feeling at that time, I dare not allow it to be depicted as though my walk with Christ is not enjoyable to me. Anytime you focus so much on what is going on around you, you begin to become desensitized to the voice of God and you give the flesh leeway. You are able to become stressed out or over emotional or confused easily. Isaish 26:3 says that He will keep us in perfect peace if our minds are stayed on Him because we trust in Him. So, anytime negative thoughts begin to rise up and you want to throw a pity party for yourself, think about what Christ went through for you. He took on the shame of the cross so that you would not have to. The veil was rent so that we could boldly approach the throne of grace. If we can approach His throne boldy then how much more should we be able to live in boldness for Him just the same. God wants us to be confident to come to Him. He does not want us to shy away from Him FOR WHATEVER REASON. THERE IS NO EXCUSE THAT CAN BE GIVEN AS TO WHY WE CAN'T APPROACH GOD AS A FATHER, AS A FRIEND.

There is no reason to be ashamed before God..after all, He innocently suffered the shame of the cross. Be repentant YES but ashamed NO!!!! That is a trick of the enemy and definitely not conducive to a relationship with God.

So in all....I am NOT defeated you guys. I have no plans of turning my back on God but at times I tend to focus on the things that are of no value to me. I tend to think a lot about what people think of me when in actuality they aren't even worried about me. I allow the enemy to toy with my emotions and it causes me to separate myself from my brothers and sisters because I am under the impression that I am not good enough or not deep like they is ALL FUTILE, believe me, and has nothing to do with the I send notice to the devil today that YOU HAVE BEEN UNCOVERED HERE. I AM NOT DEFEATED AND AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR THROUGH CHRIST JESUS.

little i still loves big U. I can't do this without you Lord...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

On my Heart

Can I have a love relationship with you Lord? My only and true first love you are but my love for you at times seems to be misdirected....all the while I know your passion for me grows deeper.

I heard someone say that you never forget your first love....but how is it that our hearts can still be turned aside from you Lord? You HAVE singed my conscience and tattooed my mind. I mean you are all that I talk about and all that I think about but I desire that my heart be captured all over again. Remember? Like the first time. I honestly want, no, need you to ooze from every pour and be knit in every fiber of my being.

My soul thirsts for you in a dry and weary land where no water is.

Lord there is no water here. There is no water in this well. I feel as though I have run dry. So what else is there to do but to redig the wells and search for more water? Lord I am searching, longing for a word from you that will spark what was once in me but I haven't found it yet. So my search continues....but Lord I am getting weary. I try and do what I think is right but still I am not fulfilled. I read (your Word), I pray, I read books and blogs and listen to sermons about getting closer Lord closer...because after all you said that if I draw nigh unto you that you would draw nigh unto me? You said that right? So..WHERE ARE YOU? WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN THIS WALK? WHY DO I QUESTION EVERYTHING THAT I SEE NOW LORD? WHY? Don't get me wrong, I have never doubted you nor your Word...NEVER. As a matter of fact that seems to be my only source of real life but Lord I know there is something I am missing what am I missing? The Spirit of God lives in me (check), I am pursuing holiness in my everyday life (check), I am trusting you the best way I know how but there is something about you or about this walk or whatever that just seems to escape me...

It seems that I have complicated a relationship that used to be so simple, so pure. My self consciousness has distanced you some so I go through the motions so that people won't know how I struggle with you at times. They don't know when I go to talk with you I don't have many words but a grieving heart that remembers the conversations we used to have. I used to be confident in our relationship...but devotions have failed me. I have begun to feel the weight of a chore. Almost like a HAVE to and not a WANT to. But here is the thing...YOU HAVE NOT CHANGED! YOU HAVE NOT MOVED ON ME! YOU WERE THE SAME GOD THAT I MET WHEN I WAS TWELVE YEARS OLD. THE SAME GOD THE FORGAVE ME EVEN WHEN I KNOW I WASN'T DOING RIGHT BY YOU. YOU NEVER STOPPED LOVING ME AND DRAWING ME TO YOU EVEN WHEN I WAS A FORNICATOR, A DRUNKARD, A LIAR, A MANIPULATOR...A MISFIT. But now that I am not any of those things anymore it seems as though I have lost a hold of our fellowship and our time together. Why do I shy away?

I hear you say, even now, that I cannot be righteous apart from Christ. That my righteousness is in as I try to be what I have been made through Christ apart from Christ I will always feel the weight of a chore. I have not come to place a burden on you but that you might be free to live for live in me.

Okay Lord so I ask that you free me...TODAY...of my chore and grant to me your pleasure in prayer and in reading your Word and even in fellowship with others(which has unfortunately become the biggest burden to me). Let none of these take place in my life as an obligation but as a joy. CONSISTENTLY. Teach me again how to pray as your Spirit guides and tutor me in your Word Lord and show me how to appreciate and love others as brothers and sisters and not as strangers. I'll live in you....I want to live in you. Just show me how Lord...

With ALL sincerety and out of a pure (yet broken) heart,


i love U i love U i love U i love U i love U i love U i love U.............little i loves big U.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Why Brian Welch Walked Away

Why did God put us on this earth? I believe He put us here to love us.

This is an awesome testimony of God's love.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Learning so much....

Now as touching things offered to idols, we all have knowledge. But knowledge puffeth up but chrity edifiteh. And if any man thinketh he know anything, he knoweth nothing yet as he ought to know. But if any man love God, the same is known of him. - 1 Corinthian 8:1-3

How true is this?!! Man how true this is. I will tell you, there is something about this Christian walk that both puffs up and edifies. It is the people that usually puff up and it is the God in us the has the ability to edify. I don't know about you but it seems we all reach a point in our walk when we think we have a handle on the things of God. We become caught up with church doctrine and sometimes forget that it is the Word of God that is the final authority but we put so much emphasis on what the church believes. Now don't get me wrong, it is a good thing to have a set of beliefs by which to govern yourself by so long as they are rooted in the Word but even then, some of the the doctrine that arises is based on what we think the Word is saying. Most of the interpretations that we have about the Word of God comes from some of the traditional things that we have been taught down the line and we become denominational converts instead of born again believers.

So what am I learning...I am learning that loving God and being loved by Him is really all that matters. And if we claim to love God we WILL love our brothers and sisters. For all of the law is fulfilled in one word and that is to love thy neighbor as thyself. I am not saying that it is okay to be in doctrinal error (learning that there is a lot of that too) and that we should accept anything but what I am saying is doctrine puffs up but love builds up. Doctrine at times confuses but love just makes sense. When we love each other we will not become offended so easily because we know we have each other's best interest as heart. But in the end it is ALL about Christ. Love says I love you enough to make sure that in everything you do you are honoring our Lord.

Not only that but I am learning A LOT and I mean A LOT about how the devil works with his backwards behind. I am becoming more and more aware of the methods he uses to keep us as far as we can possibly get from God. And this is the thing, he doesn't even care about you devoting your life and actions to him but so long as he can keep you in a place that you will never experience true freedom in Christ, if he can get you to hang out in the middle (lukewarm) he is good. But the farther away he can entice you the better. That is why we have to be careful of the small things that capture our affections because God is a jealous God (yes Oprah! He is jealous for us and not of us). And most of all HE LOVES US..OH HOW HE LOVES US like she says below:

And I love you too!

Peace and Blessings


Wednesday, October 7, 2009


The most important thing that we could possibly EVER obtain in life is a realtionship with God. We were redeemed by His blood to spend eternity with Him in heaven when at one point in time that completely impossible. But God made it possible becuase it was important to Him to reconcile His creation to himself. ALL of His creation...and that includes me and YES you too!!!

It is one thing to be redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ but it is a total different matter altogether to garner a relationship with Him. It is easy to, as some practice, say a prayer and ask Jesus into your heart. It may even be easy to for others to be fire baptized with His Holy Ghost and speak in an unknown tongue but at some point in each of these lives....the challenge comes with actually having a relationship with Jesus. We can hold on to the manifestations, the fruit of the Spirit displayed in us and even the works that animate our faith but to be in a close relationship with The Father...OH MY!! How does one do that?

I wish OH how I wish I had a formula to recite that would solve this for us but the truth is I do not. What I do know and what I can tell you is this...a relationship is first built on these things:

1. The blood of Jesus Christ and the power that it has to save us from death and sin

2. Continual trust and faith in God

3. The Holy Ghost (His power not ours)

4. Prayer (open and constant communication)

5. Obedience to His will through His Word

6. A willing heart and mind


That acutally almost sounds like a formula but not really. These are merely precursors but only a few. Also, understand this...God pursues us! God wants and longs to have a relationship with us. He doesn't just want to save our souls but He wants to talk to us and teach us and show us His love. We can know these things all day long and we can know about the character of God as much as we would like but I believe He wants us to not just know these things but to actually experience them first hand! I believe it is His will for us.

This relationship that I speak of is so about LOVE at that. His sacrifice for us was based on love. His resurrection was based on love. And everything else that He does is based on love but without the relationship we cannot know or even experience His love. There is a secular song that comes to mind that goes a little something like this:

I needed the shelter of someone's arms
I needed someone to share my ups and downs
With sweet love and devotion
deeply touching my emotion
I want to stop and thank you

I am NOT trying to spiritualize a secular song but thats just what came to mind for the moment. Psalms 91:4 says "He shall cover you with His feathers and under His wings you shall take refuge." HOW SWEET IT IS TO BE LOVED BY YOU! 1 Peter 5:7 says that we can cast our cares on Him because He cares for us. HOW SWEET IT IS TO BE LOVED BY YOU! Romans 5:8 says while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. HOW SWEET IT IS TO BE LOVED BY YOU! Eyes have not seen, ear have not heard nor has it entered into the hearts of man the things that God has prepared for those that love Him. HOW SWEET IT IS TO BE LOVED BY YOU!

As I write this I am reminded to not give up and to keep pursuing God no matter how I feel or how hard things seem to get. I KNOW I love Him and I am even more certain that He loves me. All I can say is that God is awesome and a relationship with Him, no matter how hard it seems it is to obtain, is well worth it...your life depends on it and that is no exaggeration.

So there you go...

God IS Love (1 John 4:8)

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Transformed by the Holy Ghost!

The Holy Ghost leads and guides into all truth....that is if we follow Him. We must allow our hearts to be surrendered to God's will in order to allow the Spirit of God in us to direct us into His way. The familiar scripture Prover 3:5-6 says, Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths. People of God, do you realize that this is a promise? By His Spirit He led the children of Israel out of Egypt. At that time He was manifested in a cloud and pillar of fire but today He lives in us. So how much more direction and guidance should we have in the Holy Ghost. And not only that but Jesus sits in a position of authority interceding on our behalf in all things.

Okay, so to the point at hand...being transformed by the Holy Ghost.

Ephesians 3:18
But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.

It is the by the Spirit of God that we are transformed and not just transformed into better people per se but into the likeness of Christ. The more the Spirit has His way in our lives more we look like Jesus, the more of His glory we reflect. This glory transcends into every area of our lives.

Case in point: I got married 4 days ago. A mere four days ago. I have barely tasted the joys AND the woes (so they say) of marriage. Prior to the "I do's" I felt I was pretty well equipped for marriage. I know the expectations but I have to admit, I was not 100% sure if I wanted to submit to those expectations right away. I felt that it would all be a learning process and something that I could work on while in the marriage. Well dear friends...God had a better idea. I believe that there was no way that God would allow me to botch what He had put together. Now, don't get me wrong, I have been seeking God to help me with this transition...sincerely not wanting to go into the marriage with the mindset that I had above but I didn't have enough faith to believe that God could transform my mindset immediately but accepted the fact that it would all come about gradually. Everything in me has changed and quickly at that has it been done. I WANT to be submissive AND obedient to my husband. I WANT to allow him to be the man AND the priest of our household. I WANT to do everything that is required of me as a wife as outlined in the word. My whole outlook has changed, my heart has been changed. I AM a wife reflecting the glory of God in marriage and by His Spirit I will continue to be.

There is no way to explain how God chooses to do His work but I am confident that He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus...and by all means I will not stand to be in His way. His will is above my will and His ways GREATER than my ways.

It is just so crazy to see how God truly does direct your paths when you put Him first. Just to see how He pulls all the pieces of the puzzle together and when you look back in hindsight you see just what He was doing. God goave the provision in every stage of our relationship. He gave us EVERYTHING that we needed to make it from one stage to the next.....He has transformed us from glory to glory into the mold that He fashioned for us and I am loving every minute of it.

Ephesians 3:17 says were the Spirit of the Lord is there is liberty and yall I can honestly say that I have never felt so free in my life. Marriage (between a man & a woman) is a wonderful thing. It is ordained by God to accomplish His will in the earth. Gotta Love It!!!

And let me tell you this, the Holy Ghost has the power to change EVERYTHING in your life. Just get a hold of the Lord Jesus Christ and don't let go. Allow Him to capture your heart and captivate minds and submit and commit your life to Him and watch the wonderful things He will do. Mark 9:22b-23 says "but if thou canst do anything, have compassion on us, and help us. Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.

In Love With Him,

Mrs. Tillis

Tuesday, July 21, 2009


Guess what?!! I am soo married and so extremely excited and my heart is definitely glad. I can't really explain the feeling but it tops the list as one of the best experiences of my life. I am looking forward to being a wife. Not just any wife but the best wife I can be for Rashid.


Mrs. Tillis

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Influences and Expectations

Have you seen me? Are you familiar with me? Do you know what I look like? Can you tell me what's in my heart? Have I made myself unknowable to you? Am I not who you remember me to be? Am I not who I should be? Who you want me to be? You see, I struggle with my identity because I'm trying to find the line between who I am and what God has made me to be. God made me...HE made me. All of me and He knows every hair on my head. He knows what's in my heart and what's on my head. He knows me and I am convinced of that but I wish He would clearly make me known to me. The influences and expectations surround me seek to form me and make me into what they feel I should be but I don't feel like that's me. I am me..whoever I am....and sometimes I feel like I can be alright with me until they tell me that's not who I'm really supposed to be.

I guess my prayer in this here is, "Lord, teach me to be me and who YOU made me to be. Help me to understand me and make amends with your Spirit that lives in me. I think I may try too hard to maintain the uniqueness that I know is me but where is the line drawn between my what's flesh and what's you in me. I read your Word and I believe I know your way but sometimes I don't feel that I am doing it right...I don't want to disappoint you or let you down. I know you enough to know what things in me that aren't anything like you and I know me enough to identify those things. But Lord, what about my personality and my temperment and the way I process things? The things that I honestly feel are a part of who and how you made me? Sometimes I feel that everything about me is wrong. What I choose to say and the way I choose to say it. How I feel sometimes and the way I choose to express it. Whose mold should I fit in? I say yours but is your mold for me the same as she or he? Have you customized us or are we all the same...should we all be the same. Now I agree we should be like minded as believers as in to say that we should have the mind of Christ but does that mean we will conform to each other? There is a difference in conforming to you but we tend to conform to the earthly examples we see. We are prey to influence and expectations and sometimes I am afraid that the influence may be godly and the expectation as well but the measuring stick we set according to man's standard's and not your heavenly standard. Compared to you Jesus we all fall short and I am fine with that. You are SUPREME and I am right glad about it but Lord I want to be You of course, but me. Not the sinful, carnal disobedient me but the silly, goofy and laid back me. The me that smiles during praise & worship and the me that loves to hear your name. The me that loves people but may not open up to them right away. The me that is innovative and creative and loves new ideas. The me that understands ignorance but does not accept it. The me that wants to be cool but not ay the expense of mine or anyone else's soul. The me that just wants to know you more and more as YOU influence me according to YOUR expectation. As you have assigned us all an assignment and a purpose, haven't you also given us everything that we need to bring it to completion? Doesn't that mean my purpose will require me to be a certain way and differentiatied from the person that sits next to me? Honestly, I don't want to be like everybody else.

I know you know where my heart is. I pray that the meditations therein be acceptable in your sight.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

The Curse of Laziness

There is a disease that plagues many. It comes in unexpectantly and claims its victims slowly. It holds the mind captive and causes the body to fall into shambles. It is the counterproductive force to progress. Dreams have been thwarted by it, relationships slandered because of it and lives brought to ruin through it. Nobody likes it yet so many embrace it.

We call this disease....LAZINESS!

Laziness presupposes that work is laborious and anything that takes energy and effort is shunned. It is a condition of the mind that says I am fixed to do nothing and to take no action. I am satisfied with complacency and even when I am not I resolve to do NOTHING!

Oh but the danger lies even further in that we deceive ourselves so to the point that we believe we deserve the "privilege" of laziness. Have you said to yourself, "This has been such a long day, I deserve to do nothing" or "I do so much that this one time won't make a difference?" We get to the point that we pack so many things into our lives that we become over busy (which is also a disease to be mentioned) and eventually crash into laziness. We go from one extreme to the next without any consideration for priority or importance and life becomes and unbalanced bowl of meaninglessness.

There is no fight in you when you are lazy. There is no self control. There is no hope. No vision. No dream. No plan of action. No course for progress or growth. The Bible says that laziness or sluggardness will cause poverty to pounce on you like a bandit. Why be pounced? Why be taken advantage of? Why give in any longer? It is a fight against the mind and a battle against the body so make up in your mind today that laziness WILL NOT have its way.

Laziness, my dear friends, is a tool from Satan himself to keep us from the will of God. And I admit that I have falen prey to such a grave sin. Putting off for tomorrow what should be done today and sadly today has quickly lengthened in time. Tomorrow is not promised and another may never be given to us again. There is no room for laziness in the Kingdom of God but only room for pressing towards the Kingdom. I don't ask for your forgiveness but I ask for your prayers as we battle and war together. For the Kingdom of God suffers violence and the violent take it by force. We need to arise and fight for the promise and do ourselves an injustice to give the battle away before it has even begun!

Awake thou oh sleeper and arise from the dead and Christ will give thee light! See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, redeeming the time because the days are evil. Wherefore be ye not unwise, but undestanding what the will of the Lord is. - Ephesians 5:14-17

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Personal Study...

These are the things I am going to try and commit to Biblical study:

-The importance of church

-What a wife should be

-How to be consistent in time with God

-Keeping a pure and sincere heart before God

-How to not go through the motions in this walk

-How other believers can help in this walk

-How other believers can hinder our walk

There are several others I am sure that will come up and hopefully I will share my findings with you all as God gives me to communicate through His Spirit.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

And the testing continues....

Lord have mercy!!!!

I'll get through it sweat!

A little different... today I am feeling a bit a unsettled. A little weird to say the least. I am feeling like I am being tested and that it is my responsibility to not allow the test to get the best of me. You see, the human mind can, at times, be a horrible place to live. It has the ability to devise plans and confuse and deceive all at the same time. It can be both evil and good all at the same time and will surely be the demise of he or she who dwells there long enough.

I would consider myself to be somewhat of a loner. I enjoy people and the company of people and I am rather friendly to say the least. But the truth is, I would prefer to be alone. So here is the dilemma...even though I prefer my solitude, at times, I feel lonely. I can be in a room full of people and feel like an outcast. Feel like I just fade to black. Is this the case? I don't believe so but my mind would sure have me to believe and I know in my heart of hearts that is not the case. I convince myself that I don't belong and I separate myself in emotion and in interaction. But I sure put on a good front.

You have to literally fight against the impulses and thoughts that arise. The only way to do that is by replacing those thoughts with true and positive meditations. Those mediations should come from the Word of God. For example, there may be times when we might feel that noone is for us but we have to remember that God's Word says if He is for us who can be against us? And if it seems that everything and everyone is against us His Word says that He is more than the whole world against us! Every time a negative thought begins to rear its head we must replace it FORCEFULLY with the WORD of GOD. If we entertain the thoughts they will consume us and eventually show themselves in our actions. What so ever a man thinketh in his heart so is he! Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.

I have to take a moment to thank the Holy Spirit because as I type this my human spirit is lifted. I am reminded of His goodness and His grace. I BELIEVE without a shadow of a doubt that God has a plan for me and that this emotion or feeling or personal sentiments are only a test. I am so glad that I have not had the opportunity to discuss this with anyone as to add salt to the wound and perpetuate the thoughts even more. You know that we are quick to justify our feelings whether they be right or wrong.

As far as confiding in others, sometimes it is helpful but other times it is counter production.
And by all means, be completely honest with God. He is the only one who can take it and understand where you are coming from without making you feel like crap. He will correct you and rebuke you if need be but He will ALWAYS, I repeat ALWAYS restore you. People, no matter how Holy Ghost filled and godly they are, don't always have the ability to do that. that's all for now....

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Blessed Blissfulness

There comes several points in our lives when we find that it becomes difficult to get a hold on what is really happening to us on a personal level. Confusion sets in and we feel all frazzled concerning our current state and our future position. Fear and uncertainty become all too familiar to us and often times we embrace them as inhabitants of our home, as the normal operators of our lives.

There then comes a point in life when a decision has to be made. The time comes when you either totally and completely succumb to the confusion and fear which become torment or we make it up in our minds that our current situation is unacceptable and will NOT be a determining factor in our future.

We should seek to be joyful in the Lord because it is through His joy that we are given the strengyh to endure the trying times and overcome the confusion. We should seek to enter a placed of blissful rest in God knowing the He is the one who has the power to deliver us from all things that afflict us...oh but here is the key...WE MUST TRUST HIM!!!!! And if we trust Him WE MUST OBEY HIM!!! And not only that but consult with Him. Many times our confusion stems from a lack of direction and if we are not seeking the Father for that direction we become frustrated and joy and peace are hard to come by. Life becomes a blur and everyday things that should make sense have quickly become trivial matters engrained in our minds. OH BUT TO FIND THE JOY OF THE LORD!! To rest in his bliss.

If you look up the word bliss in the dictionary you will find one definition that says the ecstasy of salvation or spiritual joy!!!! PRAISE GOD....But let us go a little further....Ecstasy (not the pill) is the overpowering exaltation or emotion; an intense feeling! If we allow God's joy or bliss to overpower us then the world CANNOT overtake us. We have got to take a hold of the joy that God has promised us and be strong in the Lord and the power of His might and stand in Him with exceeding GREAT JOY!!!! We can get lost in HIs presence and in His life. Oh what blessed blissfulness we can experience when we focus on Jesus Christ when are minds are stayed on Him. If we seek Him in His fullness and not just for the things that WE want we will find that we can be more joyful and at peace with the Lord than we could have ever imagined. He is the Ultimate extreme gift giver, the maker of all things and Supreme ruler of all. His ways are right and His law is just.

Believe in Him and receive His salvation and be overtaken by His BLISS.....This blessed blissfulness.

For those of you that know Him I encourage you in this.

For those of you that do not know Him I invite you to get to know Him by first receiving His salvation! His salvation is made available to ALL that will believe in Him abd repent from their old way of living and adopt the new way in Christ. By first committing the heart to Jesus Christ and allowing the life to follow after the things that He teaches in His Word (which is the Bible).

I Love You All!

Blissfully Blessed*

Thursday, February 26, 2009

The Problem with Today's Youth....

HORRIBLE adult influences (the lack of good role models)


The Media!

Movies! Videos! Radio! (not exclusively)

We have all been victims of both as some point in our youth which ought to make us want to do better....


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

The Truth, The Whole Truth and Nothing but the Truth

You know what? Truth, down right Biblical truth makes people uncomfortable! It causes some to be uncomfortable to hear it. It cause some that know it uncomfortable to speak it. And it causes some that speak it uncomfortable to receive the reactions from others, so they silence themselves.

People make the comment that truth is relative but truth is not relative, it is absolute! What's even more unsettling is that the Church (body of believers) is divided concerning issues of the truth. We have lots of opinions(which is what I guess this whole blogging thing is)and nothing to base them on except a shoddy understanding of God's Word. Let me interject with Proverbs 4:7 - in all your getting get an understanding. Dear friends, I am guilty of this as well! And so are you! Which is why I seek to know more.

I am at the point now that I want the full unadulterated truth no matter how much it hurts because all that it will do is kill me to life and allow this dear old flesh that I have been allowing to control me for so long to die die die! That is if I can be humble and grateful enough to receive the Truth and correction from GOD.

Not that legalistic stuff that says don't touch that, don't wear that, only say this but the kind of Truth that will cause me to draw closer to God. The kind of truth that convicts me when I do wrong or sin against God and lets me know that it is NOT oaky. I desire a realer than real wide open relationship with Him. You know what else is crazy? The closer we seem to get to God the further away our minds become from the world and things of this world, people start to think that you are just down right crazy and fanatical! People holler we need to be balanced but balanced in what? Most of the time people say that and what it ends producing is compromise. Again the importance of knowing what the Word says. See, Jesus ate with sinners to teach sinners theway because He is the Truth but He did not conform to them in any way and He was totally and completely balanced. He met them where they were to give them the opportunity to come up to Him and not for Him to come down to their level. I believe balance is important but we should be certain to seek balance in the things of God! How can you balance wordly things with spiritual? It just won't happen....the scale will forever be tipped.

And another thing, If you ask me how I'm doing I will say blessed and highly favored because I am! If that offends you or if that makes you feel uncomfortable then I apologize that you can't handle the truth. If you don't feel that way about yourself then I am only admonishing you to re evaluate your worth in Jesus Christ. And please please please let us not only equate blessing with the material. This point cannot be reiterated enough. The last thing that being blessed in Christ is material wealth and possessions. I did not say that God allowing us to have material things is not a blessing but what I am saying is those are the last things we should look to be blessed with. That's all.

Yall I am just saying this because I love God so extremely much and I love you all so much! I just don't want US to perish because we lack knowledge and because we allow half truths (which is no truth at all) to creep into our lives. So help me help you as I help you help me........

Loved Ones....Brothers and Sisters....
Let's seek the Truth, the whole Truth and nothing but the Truth.

I Love You All!

You are Blessed by God and Highly Favored if you are walking with Him!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Christians vs. Followers of Jesus Christ (Disciples)

Believers and nonbelievers alike understand that the basis of "Christianity" is rooted in the belief and faith in the life and works of Jesus Christ. A bit of knowledge for those of you that do not know in the Book if Acts to be called a "Christian" was not a compliment but was a derogartory identifier to label those that followed the teachings of Jesus Christ. I personally feel that too much emphasis has been placed on being a Christian and NOT a follower of the Lord Jesus Christ. In my mind, these are two distinct things. You may be labeled a Christian based on what you profess to believe from and intellectual stand point but unless we lived as He lived, all that is done is done in vain.

Christians have allowed themselves to be deceived as to what kind of life they were called to whereas followers of Jesus Christ seek to live as Jesus lived. (1 John 2:6) To do as Jesus did. We have to seek and pursue holiness as a way of life and not merely as an option. 1 Peter 1:13 says that we are to be holy because He is holy and if we are to called to be imitators of Christ then what else can we or should we claim or strive to be?

Rashid and I were talking last night and it can get reather frustrating and discouraging when our brothers and sisters in Christ miss this point. Its almost as if the cross of Jesus Christ is taken for granted and the people that claim to follow Him live by a strange set of beliefs that they mistake for Biblical but is really a perversion of the truth. I don't want to sound as if I am judging because I remember there was a point in my life where I willfully sinned against God knowing the truth but this is what makes me so adamant about this. I realized the EXTREME error in my way and only want other believers to come to that same realization.

It is so important that we are being taught correctly in church and that we study God's Word for the correct understanding of scripture for all scripture is God breathed and is profitable for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness. We really have to get the Word and understand the Word so we can live the Word and be like the Word........

We have really got to get this because there will come a time when the truth ceases to be taught and you have to be able to stand on whatever foundation was laid and if that foundation was not Christ and Christ alone like it says in 1 Corinthians 1...when the fire comes it will be burned up.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

I'm Back!!!

So it seems it has been a while since my last entry. Well, it has, in fact, been awhile since my last entry. What things have happened since then.....I AM ENGAGED YALL. It all happened on Christmas Day. I am in the process of planning the wedding for July. Things are actually going pretty well. Once we got past the inital phase of decidind who would be in control and whose opinion mattered it was smooth sailing. Thank God for reconciliation....LOL. But really, I am enjoying the planning on a budget.

I have been finding some really GREAT deals. Got an awesome photographer for $500. Possible a free limo. A decorated ceremony and reception site for $1,700 and the list goes on. The next step is to find me and honey somewhere to live. This may be a little more diffiult than anticipated but guess what? With God all things are possible. ( I bet you knew I was going to say that).

Hopefully I won't be such a defunct user of this here blog but bear with me and I'll do my best.

God Bless!