Friday, April 27, 2012


You don't always need the TV on. For what does it profit you? Feeding you with food that provides no nourishment. You don't always have to have the TV on; to distract you from your flaws and perpetuate them all at the same time. You REALLY don't need to have the TV on; to poison your mind with a poison that doesn't kill lingers to torture you slowly...almost painlessly until you just give in. As a matter of fact, TURN THE TV OFF and listen to what your brother has to say and just reflect on your day...because I am sure you missed something important. Your daughter is crying and wants to play, but turn the TV on (or it turns you on) and you tantalize and titillate one another until your senses diminish and the picture fades. And the only thing that's real to you is what comes out of that box. READ A BOOK!

Love Letter

I was looking through a box and found an old journal that I used to keep. I ran across two short pieces that I wrote like back in 2008 or so. The first is entitled "Love Letter." Here it goes:

If I wrote you a love letter, it would say this:

I haven't the words to put together to accurately proclaim my love.

You are the fresh breath that I've needed and never will I forget, My Love, that the sun rises with you and all things live for you, My Love. And there is nothing, I mean nothing that can ever replace your love.

It is deeper than the deep and wider than all that is wide. It is true, it is pure, it is undying. Unselfish, selfless and relying.

I could have sworn I had found you before when deception I lived for, but I was only living a lie time and time again.

I nearly gave up, My Love. But you sought me out with your love and gave me the Reason to love....My Love.

Freely I give you me to love unconditionally because without you....there is no me.

That's what I would say in my love letter to you, Jesus.

Saturday, April 21, 2012


Why good morning to you this morning! I am up a bit earlier on a Saturday than I am usually accustomed to. My daughter (YES, I said my daughter) wanted to wake up so I have been up for the past hour or so.

There have been quite a few changes since my last entry. All changes for the better I would say but these changes did not come without challenges. I just thought I would take a few moments to jot down a bit of what has happened.

Well, the first MAJOR change (which I mentioned in the first sentence) is I had a baby! I remember a post awhile ago saying how ready I was to bring a little one in to the world. Shortly after that, I found out I was pregnant. Now, she is already 8 months old. My how time flies! And we love her dearly. She is so much fun and enjoyable. I am sitting here feeding her breakfast in between typing spurts as we speak. The thing I love about her the most is she is always (at least 90% of the time) happy and smiling! Someone said, "This baby has the joy of the Lord!" All I could say was AMEN! That she does and through her God has given us even more of His joy and love. Praise the Lord for little Charity!

Another change that we have undergone is my husband and I have decided to no longer "attend" church services, but we are beginning to understand what the Lord meant when He said He was building His Church! I will most definitely do a separate blog post for this one because it was quite a journey! QUITE a journey. A time of real spiritual testing (and still is at times). I will say that it all started when I began asking all those questions and feeling awkward about the ministry we were attending at the time. Its funny how you start at point A and end all the way up at point Y without even intending to be there or knowing that its even where you are going. While the first change was probably the biggest, this one here was and is probably the most rigorous and challenging. Even more so than child birth....Well, at least it felt like it at times.

My marriage is wonderful. I mean it has always been, but it seems to just get better and I thank the Lord for that.

Ok, so Charity is getting a bit fussy. I am going to tend to her and get back soon.

Until then.....

Hold tight. Stand Strong. Rejoice for the Lord is doing some great and mighty things!