Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Transformed by the Holy Ghost!

The Holy Ghost leads and guides into all truth....that is if we follow Him. We must allow our hearts to be surrendered to God's will in order to allow the Spirit of God in us to direct us into His way. The familiar scripture Prover 3:5-6 says, Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths. People of God, do you realize that this is a promise? By His Spirit He led the children of Israel out of Egypt. At that time He was manifested in a cloud and pillar of fire but today He lives in us. So how much more direction and guidance should we have in the Holy Ghost. And not only that but Jesus sits in a position of authority interceding on our behalf in all things.

Okay, so to the point at hand...being transformed by the Holy Ghost.

Ephesians 3:18
But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.

It is the by the Spirit of God that we are transformed and not just transformed into better people per se but into the likeness of Christ. The more the Spirit has His way in our lives more we look like Jesus, the more of His glory we reflect. This glory transcends into every area of our lives.

Case in point: I got married 4 days ago. A mere four days ago. I have barely tasted the joys AND the woes (so they say) of marriage. Prior to the "I do's" I felt I was pretty well equipped for marriage. I know the expectations but I have to admit, I was not 100% sure if I wanted to submit to those expectations right away. I felt that it would all be a learning process and something that I could work on while in the marriage. Well dear friends...God had a better idea. I believe that there was no way that God would allow me to botch what He had put together. Now, don't get me wrong, I have been seeking God to help me with this transition...sincerely not wanting to go into the marriage with the mindset that I had above but I didn't have enough faith to believe that God could transform my mindset immediately but accepted the fact that it would all come about gradually. Everything in me has changed and quickly at that has it been done. I WANT to be submissive AND obedient to my husband. I WANT to allow him to be the man AND the priest of our household. I WANT to do everything that is required of me as a wife as outlined in the word. My whole outlook has changed, my heart has been changed. I AM a wife reflecting the glory of God in marriage and by His Spirit I will continue to be.

There is no way to explain how God chooses to do His work but I am confident that He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus...and by all means I will not stand to be in His way. His will is above my will and His ways GREATER than my ways.

It is just so crazy to see how God truly does direct your paths when you put Him first. Just to see how He pulls all the pieces of the puzzle together and when you look back in hindsight you see just what He was doing. God goave the provision in every stage of our relationship. He gave us EVERYTHING that we needed to make it from one stage to the next.....He has transformed us from glory to glory into the mold that He fashioned for us and I am loving every minute of it.

Ephesians 3:17 says were the Spirit of the Lord is there is liberty and yall I can honestly say that I have never felt so free in my life. Marriage (between a man & a woman) is a wonderful thing. It is ordained by God to accomplish His will in the earth. Gotta Love It!!!

And let me tell you this, the Holy Ghost has the power to change EVERYTHING in your life. Just get a hold of the Lord Jesus Christ and don't let go. Allow Him to capture your heart and captivate minds and submit and commit your life to Him and watch the wonderful things He will do. Mark 9:22b-23 says "but if thou canst do anything, have compassion on us, and help us. Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.

In Love With Him,

Mrs. Tillis

Tuesday, July 21, 2009


Guess what?!! I am soo married and so extremely excited and my heart is definitely glad. I can't really explain the feeling but it tops the list as one of the best experiences of my life. I am looking forward to being a wife. Not just any wife but the best wife I can be for Rashid.


Mrs. Tillis

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Influences and Expectations

Have you seen me? Are you familiar with me? Do you know what I look like? Can you tell me what's in my heart? Have I made myself unknowable to you? Am I not who you remember me to be? Am I not who I should be? Who you want me to be? You see, I struggle with my identity because I'm trying to find the line between who I am and what God has made me to be. God made me...HE made me. All of me and He knows every hair on my head. He knows what's in my heart and what's on my head. He knows me and I am convinced of that but I wish He would clearly make me known to me. The influences and expectations surround me seek to form me and make me into what they feel I should be but I don't feel like that's me. I am me..whoever I am....and sometimes I feel like I can be alright with me until they tell me that's not who I'm really supposed to be.

I guess my prayer in this here is, "Lord, teach me to be me and who YOU made me to be. Help me to understand me and make amends with your Spirit that lives in me. I think I may try too hard to maintain the uniqueness that I know is me but where is the line drawn between my what's flesh and what's you in me. I read your Word and I believe I know your way but sometimes I don't feel that I am doing it right...I don't want to disappoint you or let you down. I know you enough to know what things in me that aren't anything like you and I know me enough to identify those things. But Lord, what about my personality and my temperment and the way I process things? The things that I honestly feel are a part of who and how you made me? Sometimes I feel that everything about me is wrong. What I choose to say and the way I choose to say it. How I feel sometimes and the way I choose to express it. Whose mold should I fit in? I say yours but is your mold for me the same as she or he? Have you customized us or are we all the same...should we all be the same. Now I agree we should be like minded as believers as in to say that we should have the mind of Christ but does that mean we will conform to each other? There is a difference in conforming to you but we tend to conform to the earthly examples we see. We are prey to influence and expectations and sometimes I am afraid that the influence may be godly and the expectation as well but the measuring stick we set according to man's standard's and not your heavenly standard. Compared to you Jesus we all fall short and I am fine with that. You are SUPREME and I am right glad about it but Lord I want to be You of course, but me. Not the sinful, carnal disobedient me but the silly, goofy and laid back me. The me that smiles during praise & worship and the me that loves to hear your name. The me that loves people but may not open up to them right away. The me that is innovative and creative and loves new ideas. The me that understands ignorance but does not accept it. The me that wants to be cool but not ay the expense of mine or anyone else's soul. The me that just wants to know you more and more as YOU influence me according to YOUR expectation. As you have assigned us all an assignment and a purpose, haven't you also given us everything that we need to bring it to completion? Doesn't that mean my purpose will require me to be a certain way and differentiatied from the person that sits next to me? Honestly, I don't want to be like everybody else.

I know you know where my heart is. I pray that the meditations therein be acceptable in your sight.