My last blog was an honest depiction of how I was feeling at the moment. I felt, in a way, a little defeated. Self defeated. I had allowed myself to be so consumed with myself that I was denying the truth of God operating in my life. While I do not believe that I was wrong for sharing what I was feeling at that time, I dare not allow it to be depicted as though my walk with Christ is not enjoyable to me. Anytime you focus so much on what is going on around you, you begin to become desensitized to the voice of God and you give the flesh leeway. You are able to become stressed out or over emotional or confused easily. Isaish 26:3 says that He will keep us in perfect peace if our minds are stayed on Him because we trust in Him. So, anytime negative thoughts begin to rise up and you want to throw a pity party for yourself, think about what Christ went through for you. He took on the shame of the cross so that you would not have to. The veil was rent so that we could boldly approach the throne of grace. If we can approach His throne boldy then how much more should we be able to live in boldness for Him just the same. God wants us to be confident to come to Him. He does not want us to shy away from Him FOR WHATEVER REASON. THERE IS NO EXCUSE THAT CAN BE GIVEN AS TO WHY WE CAN'T APPROACH GOD AS A FATHER, AS A FRIEND.
There is no reason to be ashamed before God..after all, He innocently suffered the shame of the cross. Be repentant YES but ashamed NO!!!! That is a trick of the enemy and definitely not conducive to a relationship with God.
So in all....I am NOT defeated you guys. I have no plans of turning my back on God but at times I tend to focus on the things that are of no value to me. I tend to think a lot about what people think of me when in actuality they aren't even worried about me. I allow the enemy to toy with my emotions and it causes me to separate myself from my brothers and sisters because I am under the impression that I am not good enough or not deep like they are...it is ALL FUTILE, believe me, and has nothing to do with the Lord....so I send notice to the devil today that YOU HAVE BEEN UNCOVERED HERE. I AM NOT DEFEATED AND AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR THROUGH CHRIST JESUS.
little i still loves big U. I can't do this without you Lord...